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Freeborn: Chapter 18

The Decks and the Road

book 1- Freeborn


Chapter 18  


Erilyn- I’d done three video conferences with Dr. Kat, and then I cancelled the fourth.  I didn’t bother to speak to her.  I just left a message on a Sunday.   It was exciting at first; the thought that I could see a change in my marriage, but then the questions started to taunt me.  They just cut through so deep.  I guess I just wanted to fix it up, not rebuild it.  I knew I wasn’t ready when she said, “Tell me about your life before you met your husband.”  I didn’t see what that had to do with anything.  Well, I could but there had to be another way.  I searched my memory and submitted to her what was suitable.  She went for it the first time, and then there we were again.  On another day, she’d circled back around to it.  I tried to remember what I’d said before, but she seemed to jump the question and found another just as trying.  We only ever did fifteen minutes at a time, but they were fifteen crawling minutes.  Everything crawled.  I knew it would only get worse, so I cancelled.    Besides, Nathan was trying.  I didn’t know what was different, but he seemed to be looking at me more.  I knew we were talking more, and last night we’d taken a few steps backwards.  That was the thing.  I didn’t always know if we needed to go backward or forward; back to when it was good or forward into something better.  It was the first time in almost three years that there was no condom between us.  It was a statement Nathan had made the way only he could.  I think that was the beginning of our coming apart.  That first night I cried for hours.  I didn’t sleep, but he did.  That was the hardest part.  The way he remained unbothered.  I think it would have been better if he would have just asked me to leave.  But he never did, and the years began to cling one to another.  I didn’t know why he’d changed his mind now.  Surely, he’d known when it stopped.  Anyway, he was coming around; kissing on me, and asking me to sit with him in the evenings while he watched television.  It was nice.  It was familiar.  We were still familiar; under it all, and it made me happy.  



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